I have never solo travelled so much in one year. I find that I grow most when I travel. It gives me time to be introspective and think about the priorities in my life. One of those priorities I have been thinking about is happiness. My perspective on happiness has changed significantly over the past few years. I am a very goal driven person. Achieving a goal releases that dopamine in my brain that brings me satisfaction. However, I was finding that satisfaction to be short lived. As I’ve grown, I’ve realized that happiness is inward. It took me too long to figure that out.
The initial excitement of living overseas and having the opportunity to travel has, in a lot of ways, subsided. In no way does it mean I am getting bored or am looking to come live in the U.S. Instead, I think that after four years, it is normal to become accustomed to any lifestyle. One philosophy I have gained substantial respect for is Buddhism. For a few months, I was struggling with these different thoughts. How come I could be feeling intermittent unhappiness when I have a happy life filled with opportunity? Then, these thoughts would lead me to wondering what I am chasing.
Learning about the main ideals under Buddhism seemed to speak volumes to me. It addresses the ideals of inward happiness. Everything in our life is temporary, including our feelings. I am not owed eternal happiness. And even if that was possible, that’s not something I would desire. Now, I am not saying that I am going to become Buddhist. I don’t really see it as a religion, but that of a philosophy and way of life. I will be reading some introductory readings to see if I can gain more perspective and insight into how to find inner peace and happiness.